I want to be very clear about this: my blog title is Fat Girl vs. World. I want to make it very clear that I am aware of how "fat" is used as a pejorative, as an insult, and as a way to make people feel less worthy of their bodies. People over the years have tried to "own" the term "fat" by saying "phat" instead, or by labeling themselves as something other than fat -- BBW, Large & In Charge, or just plain Zaftig.
I could go on and on about this (in a future post I probably will) but I just wanted to explain my blog title... In my mind I'm trying to (1) defend people who have weight issues as being something other than the stereotype of fat, lazy, unmotivated and unable and to do so, I have to take on the world at large (2) illustrate that most of us cannot address weight loss and our health in a vacuum, we must struggle to find ourselves in the real world and (3) explain that there's a difference between the mindfulness of an unhealthy fat person (as is my point of view) versus the mindfulness of a fit person.
Too often when someone tries to compliment me, I shrug it off or basically undermine the compliment with some comment about my fatness. It has become almost a way of showing modesty. When people used to complment a hundred of years ago, you'd hold a fan to your face, blush, or say "I do declare!" (or if you're Blanche Devereaux). Somewhere along the line we (especially females) are taught this false modesty of when we are being complimented to point out our weaknesses.
I'm going to work on that. Even if I don't undermine the comment vocally, I'm going to stop doing it mentally. So yeah, I might be a fat girl vs the world, but that's not the way I'll always be.