Before this, there were many books and resources that would list some of the major nutrients of some processed (and unprocessed) foods, i.e., the T-Factor Calorie Counting book. It told you the basics (calories, fat, carbohydrates/sugars, protein, salt) about the average baked potato all the way up to a Whopper with cheese. (Opinions about food/diet has changed so much over the past 18 years, hasn't it?)
And before that, people didn't care what was in their packaged foods, because pre-packaged industrialized food hadn't been invented yet. Beef came in cow packaging; tomato sauce came in tomato packaging. Any packaging was done in the kitchen (salting, canning, pickling, etc.). Before labeling, one had to rely on a mix of experience, instinct, and social learning to know what foods were good for you and which were not (and it was just a best guess). This was also the golden era before "dieting." It was either you had food or you didn't. (Notice how the diet industry evolved concurrently with the industrialization with food?)
I wish men were required to wear a label*
(I bet you didn't see that coming).
All too often men put forth a(n initial) good showing that they are kind, generous, loyal, honorable (the front of the box health claims) and then as time goes by you see what they really are (the nutrition label showing all sorts of weird petrochemicals, preservatives, and filler).
But unlike that which guides our nutrition choices, men have no labels. We have to go on faith that what men tell and show us is an accurate representation of who they are at their core. We take a risk (emotionally, mentally, sexually, etc.) when we get involved with a man. Sometimes it is a healthy risk, and sometimes it is a very unhealthy risk (but that's something we only find out in retrospect).
Most of us would never go near the guy that was going to break our heart if, from the onset, we knew he was capable of it. They lead with tenderness and care when really they are only looking out for themselves. Their communicativeness is a carefully executed ruse to win trust and lose undies. The effort they expend is proportionate to what they think they can get in return, instead of giving freely from their heart (a/k/a generosity).
I believe that books like The Game and people like Tom Leykis, and even the sexual revolution have screwed the single woman that wants to be in a monogamous relationship with a decent man. Basically if you're a guy and you don't want to be in a relationship, you don't have to be because somewhere there's a woman willing to just have casual sex with you.
As an anthropologist (I studied biological/forensic anthropology in college), I can understand the biological impetus for men to want to have lots of sex with many women (and a woman's desire to nest with one partner), but since the dawn of civilization society has set the rules/boundaries/parameters of such interaction. Recently society has lost its mind. Whereas in the past a guy actually had to be honorable and do right by the woman, the bar is currently set quite low. If a woman has any kind of standards or expectations, she's seen as demanding or is accused of acting entitled. A guy calling on the third day is considered responsive.
Fuck yeah I feel that a guy should (ahem) call me, maybe take me out in public (*gasps*), or introduce me to his friends (outrageous!) if he would like to see me without my clothing on. Is that such a radical idea? Apparently it is.
All too often when we experience the jerks, we don't recognize it at first. We see a challenge, or feel that we need to jump up and down, waving our arms in the air in order to be recognized. Furthermore, women are now taking on the roles of the prince slaying the dragon. We go above and beyond to prove our worthiness to a guy. It's so effing backwards. I think if a woman finds herself walking through fire for a guy, it's the wrong guy. No man with a spine, sense of self-worth, or cajones would let a woman assume all the risk and face the fire. That's just basic decency that your mom and dad (should have) taught you.
Imagine if in addition to a nutrition label, the very worst of the worst (the men who make other men look bad) had to have a warning label slapped on them? What if the warning label said "This guy will cheat on you, give you STDs, impregnate you, and embezzle money." You'd avoid him like the plague, right?
But I wouldn't be writing this post if that's the way the world always worked, now would I? The truth still remains that there are men out there that abuse and misuse women. There are men that are like wrecking balls in a woman's life -- completely oblivious or not caring to the damage they cause.
It's hard to practice lovingkindness and forgiveness to yourself when you feel like you've been duped. But I ask you this -- in these situations, did you act accordingly to who you want to be/how you want to be perceived? Were you trusting? Honest? Selfless? Kind? Considerate? Compassionate? How dare you let someone make you feel like you are bad/wrong for being all of these good things. Shame on them for taking advantage of you . Be resilient, if possible, and remain all of those positive attributes. The right person is out there and you don't want to scare him away by being a jaded princess walled up in an emotional fortress.
So yes, I'm talking to myself here. There are a few of my inner circle who know what has been going on in my life (and no, no pregnancy or embezzlement). It's utterly disheartening to meet someone that you could see having a future with and then having it be a complete mirage/one-sided love affair. I'm exhausted from trying. I'm exasperated from trying to explain things to him in a way that he would understand that he was responsible for causing me pain (I still don't know if he understands -- in my mind if you caused someone pain, writing "I'm sorry" in an IM is not enough).
But I am glad that I stood up for myself (albeit it five months late). So many people keep on telling me that I need to love myself before trying to get in a relationship. If you knew me, you'd know how absolutely silly this is to say to me. I love myself beyond compare. I think I'm beautiful, brilliant, witty, sexy, and so much more. Wanting to be in a relationship is not about me trying to supplement myself or be rescued. Part of loving myself so much is knowing exactly who I am and what I need to be happy. I am my happiest when I am able to love someone worthy of my love. I know the quality, depth, and strength of that love and devotion.
If a man doesn't think he's worthy of my love, or unable to handle it, he needs to have enough self-awareness to figure it out and then admit it to himself. No equivocation. No wasting my time. I had actively decided to not have sex with anyone until I found that capable man. I thought I had, and boy was I wrong. And while I regret that he was either duplicitous or had the emotional maturity of a gnat, I know my heart and mind were at engaged long before my body.
To quote Gigi from the movie "He's just not that into you" (I know, I know, not a cinematic great, but it had a few great quotes in it...):
I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there too much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are.The odd thing is that I feel compassion (bordering on pity) for him. Who passes up the chance to be genuinely loved so easily?
*If you want to bitch and complain about women, feel free to do that in your own blog. And yes, I'm lumping all men together. I know fully well that there are good guys out there, but until I meet one that wants to be with me and treat me well, these are the kinds of guys I have to either deal with or be wary of.
**Also, please no specific man bashing in the comments. I can appreciate that you want to be supportive/protective, but that won't help me feel better and/or move on.