Strong & Wrong11:01:00 AM
My childhood vocal teacher (surprise! I studied classical voice/opera most of my life) said that if you're going to sing something wrong...
My childhood vocal teacher (surprise! I studied classical voice/opera most of my life) said that if you're going to sing something wrong, "sing it strong & wrong." That way, if someone thinks "hmmm that doesn't sound right" they'll think "oh, I guess it was written that way." It doesn't always work, but in a pinch it will do.
It's not good enough for me. I want to be an active person, to keep the weight off, to be strong and fast. And they tell me that I can't. It's not about how the world sees me. It's about how I see me. (a little nugget if you want to talk to me about my injury)
They're not trying hard enough to come up with a solution. So I'm going to run strong and wrong for a while. Let the inflammation and damage show on the MRI. They want me to "manage" my injury. I want to thrive. I'm not trying to injure myself, but I'm trying to show them "When I live my life the way I want and need to live it, this is how my spine looks. NOW FIX IT." My "doing what I can" is not just about what I can do physically, but it's about not letting the doctors brush me off.
My injury can no longer dictate my life in a way that it restricts my happiness or how well I live.